My thoughts about you; yes YOU.
Observe. Yes, I am always observing. But my observing is much more than just what you may wear or your appearance. I observe the interactions of people with one another, and most of all I listen. Yes I'm always listening, many times for what is unsaid. The unfortunate thing about listening so much is that when I am alone I replay every conversation. What was it that made them say this or do that? When they said this, I think the root of that comes from this. Yes, surely it is that or another. If I'm quite frank I can see voids in people quite quickly and identify their desire to fill them. The hard part about identifying so quickly these areas of loss and need is then trying to communicate as Christ would how to fill them. Surely I cannot recount their life decisions as Jesus did, after all he knew the thoughts of man. Yet in my times of silence and reflection, I can conclude much of an individual. Even in my deductions and conclusions I have no true assurance of their hearts condition beyond what I hear and see.
And I find myself again filled with my thoughts. I find myself full of questions. I find myself searching again. This gift of seeing the heart of man. It comes with much weight and responsibility. I am not higher or wiser or better and my own heart is full of deception without Christ. How can I, a simple man, communicate, correct, and offer assistance when I am not God? I find myself often concluding that there is no easy way to communicate to man the condition of their heart that I have observed. I find that in no way can I communicate from a place of true understanding to my brothers and sisters, for I have not 'walked a life in their shoes.'
Yet as I go back to His word for answers I find this very thing. Jesus. Yes Jesus. He was perfect, blameless, so compassionate. He felt the void of man in their heart, He felt the angst for the souls of man because He could discern their hearts. And in His very heart He was moved by His compassion to not allow people to stay where they were, but to love them and not only provide the answers but restore life and victory to them. Jesus, He had unlimited access to the Father. He had all He needed and more in the Father and I know Jesus wants that for every human being since the beginning of time. He wanted it so much that He dared to make people uncomfortable. He wanted it so much that He gave of himself so we could experience it.
So as my time draws to an end with my thoughts, I conclude this very thing as I weep over some of you who will read this. I have not experienced the depth of the hurt or pain that you have. I am not better or more than you and I have no formula or step by step process to fix things. But I do hurt with you. I feel the pain that you feel and you don't even know it but I pray over your heart and spend hours contemplating how I can love you like Christ. And I will not let you stay where you are. I will do everything I can to make you and myself uncomfortable. Because in that, true freedom and victory will come. You will never look back again but fix your eyes on Jesus and see that he has been by your side, with you, calling you, loving you, from the moment you were conceived.
Friend, there is more of Him that He desires for you. He longs for you, for He has told me. He fights for you for He has shown me. And the good news is this. He has already won your heart.