WHY I QUIT A JOB I LIKED AT 26
As some of you know and others are still finding out, I recently resigned and left THE best company I have worked at to date. Many people have been shocked to find out, while a handful are surely saying 'finally, she's been talking about it for months.' So why did I do it? Why did I leave an awesome paying job, doing something I was good at, and something I enjoyed?
I WANT TO CHANGE THE WORLD
I've always believed that I would do something different, huge, and meaningful with my life. I was raised in a home where I was told 'You can be anything you want to be, and don't let anyone tell you differently.' And I've always had support from everyone I love to chase my dreams, shoot for the stars, and do the impossible.
Yet I found myself where you may be. I was about to turn 26 and realized that I was in an amazing place in life, but I wasn't doing what I loved. I was working a job that paid the bills, I was on track to make great money and grow, but I didn't stay up all night thinking of how I could recruit people for IT jobs. I didn't spend my weekends researching how to do my job better, and when I day dreamed about what my dream job was, it wasn't and never has been, where I was at.
So I talked a lot about quitting. I told people that I was going to leave. That I was going to chase my dreams and do something bigger and better. But the problem was that I was all talk. I was afraid. So deathly afraid to leave the security of a good job, to switch careers completely (I'm not getting any younger here), likely going to take a pay cut, and risk everything. Sure I could justify it by saying the return and at the 'end of the day' would be a positive one, but what would people think? Would I even find a job? Would I have to literally change everything to do what I loved?
I wrestled with so many questions, so many fears, so many doubts. Yet every day at my job, the biggest struggle I had was working. Once it hit me that this isn't what I was made for, I couldn't find the joy in it anymore. So after a lot of praying, discussing with my parents, friends, and mentor, I began to really prepare to leave. I would wake up daily and ask the Lord, 'is today the day? or I am I called to work unto you today until you say it's time.' One day, he finally said, 'Today is the day.'
That day life began all over again.
No the past month and a half without a job has not been easy, I've been the busiest I think I've ever been. I've cried, I've laughed, and I've had to make some REALLY tough decisions on where to go and what job to take. But through it all, my sweet Father in Heaven has been so good. He took the little bit of faith and the little bit of obedience I had and turned into something I couldn't conjure up if I tried. I feel like Peter walking out on water, learning to keep my eyes fixed on him and sinking when I turn away.
Today as I flew into Knoxville for training, I realized just how the Lord has been by my side throughout the entire journey. I realized that He has given me more than I even knew what to ask for. I was reading Matthew and came across a scripture I have memorized and have read many times, yet this time it had a new meaning. I wept as I thought of myself over the past 6 months. Maybe this is you, maybe you are where I was at, afraid, unsure, but wanting more from this life. Wanting to change things and leave a legacy. Be encouraged by reading this scripture and know that the Lord who holds the world in His hands has a plan for you. You're obedience and step out of the boat will take you on a journey of fullness of life. So fix your eyes on him, and take that first step, and even if you sink, He will be by your side to rescue you.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his ispan of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.